Hello Tiffy!

Licky the Lizard

This little guy was on my patio. Cutest new buddy in Austin! Much more pleasant than Mustard the Roach.

Rocko took the opportunity to jump inside the cupboard while we were making spaghetti the other night.

Where did he get the nerve? I think he had too much to drink.

I have never really “seen” one of those FUCKING 3d images. You know, they were big in the 90’s, books and posters with repeating images all over, and if you “stare through the paper” you see a 3d image pop out? Nope. Never. I have almost gotten to see it, but every time I am almost there it disappears or I get distracted. It is still a dream of mine. I need to put that on my 43 things list!

Yep, I am 27. At first I found it strange that I was having a birthday in another state, but then I realized that since my 21st birthday I have had my birthday in a state other than CA almost every single year. Well I am talking about Nevada, but the fact is that I am normally on my way home by now…. yet this year I am not. I had a nice birthday, though. On Friday night J, T & I all hopped on the Riata party bus to go downtown and get some drinks. We had tons of fun! Except at the end of the night, J got into a scuffle with some drunk guy. Well we were getting off the bus at the early hour of 2:45 AM or so, and this strange guy that had 2 females with him says something to J and hits him dead in the jaw. J goes the fuck CRAZY and T & I were holding him back… we didn’t quite understand what happened, but according to J, the guy told T that he can bring one of his “females” home with him with some exchange of money, J tells the guy to “stop trying to act like a pimp”, the guy socks J in the face and next thing you know its a street brawl! Well, we were all drunk it probably was less exciting than it looked but J was bleeding and let me just say that we have been together 4 yrs and I have never seen him start shit with anyone. Also, he is 6′6″ it is a rare day when someone will fuck with him in the first place. Well this guy did. And even though T & I Were holding him back, J got a few roundhouse kicks into the guys ribs and the guy was being held back by his *ahem* girlfriends… wow what a night. Anyway, we made it home alright, J was PISSED at me for holding him back and I just tried to explain I didn’t see what happened, which I didn’t, but I think he should be grateful he didn’t end up in jail because who knows what would have happened had I not been trying to hold him back. The day after none of us really know wtf happened but we are all fine so it doesn’t matter much now. Honestly it was a pretty fun night. We went to tons of new and cool bars. At the end of the night I think we all realized we are too old for this party bus thing and are probably going to stick to the old people bar down the block….

The next day was my birthday but Jay and I spent most of the day recovering. We decided to hit up this restaurant called Kobe Japanese Steakhouse which is a lot like Benihana. It was totally yummy, however J really did not prefer the sushi he tried there. (They have a sushi bar as well) I personally loved the sushi that I ordered, so no complaints here! French Roll (tempura shrimp, cucumber, avocado and spicy mayo stuff) = Da Bomb! I also had a NY Steak and Teriyaki scallops. I should say I tried to eat it… there was way too much food so I had leftovers the next day. Yummy! The coolest part of dinner was dessert! J pulled a sneaky and told the kitchen it was my birthday (aww) so what happens, of course a chocolate cake with a candle comes out on a beautifully decorated plate. It was sooo cute. The restaurant helped sing me a Happy Birthday song in japanese which was just adorable. I love that kind of stuff and J knew it. Well he should by now after almost 4 years, but I digress. Kobe Steakhouse also gave me a birthday present, a cute pair of chopsticks! Thanks Kobe!

I also got a Wii Fit for my birthday, which I just adore, but I haven’t had as much time to play on it as I would like. I did have a lot of fun playing games on Xbox Live and Wii Fit on my birthday it was sooo relaxing. As my friend V put it, it was a mental holiday. I have work to do lately, more than I want to do, making less than I would like, not ideal but I am pulling through. I have tons of bill collectors calling me which is no fun, I really feel like I can get out of my debt but I just have too much. It is a serious bummer. I have to pull through and I hope it happens soon. I had an interview for a job position I posted here a few weeks ago but I am too scared to jinx it, so I won’t go into details. All I want to say is please pray for me!!! Alright, I am done. I would like to come back and talk to you again soon, but no promises of course. Thanks for keeping up with this. I have had my blog for a year now and I am up to 6 or 7 regular readers! Woot! M, B, B, V, M, and sometimes L, Thanks.

Ok so I had a chat with my dad on the phone today and I was explaining it all to my friend online. I feel that I really put it well this way, please so if you don’t mind following along, here is an explanation of my frustration with him lately. I have contemplated writing this into a nifty essay for your enjoyment, but I really feel that this is the best way to put my feelings, as they are raw, and UNCUT! Well, they are raw, anyway. MY poor dad. sigh sigh sigh

Tiff: so
Tiff: hes still relatively senile which annoys me, i wish i could be more compassionate.
Tiff: hes not seeming to get worse or anything
Tiff: he just is maddeningly annoying
Tiff: i don’t know the reason but i suspect the old drinking problem he had just killed the part of his brain that harbors human compassion or something
Tiff: i say this because he’s just one of those people that doesn’t seem to understand when he’s interrupting you, or whatever
Tiff: doesn’t recognize that you are talking so its not time to start talking yet
Tiff: in other words i feel its a few steps beyond a person that simply doesn’t listen
Tiff: but it has been that way a long time, i’m trying to repair my mind towards him basically but it never works
Tiff: repair my feeling / opinion about his behavior
Tiff: but anyway
Tiff: he doesn’t ever remember jays name
Tiff: he calls him zack
Tiff: why who knows
Tiff: and he doesn’t realize how long we’ve been together and its a little more than just a bf
Tiff: also, he always thinks i’m a year younger than i am, every birthday
Tiff: annoying cause every year i correct him but that’s minor sort of
Tiff: worrisome ,but generally minor
Tiff: today i made a real attempt to talk to him like he’s a normal person
Tiff: put my feelings aside and just talked to him like he’s anyone else you know
Tiff: it was just disappointing
Tiff: like it was time to explain why i moved here
Tiff: so i had to kind of tell a story which is more than i normally go into with him
Tiff: and explained the lay off, the proposal for hay to move here, etc, which led into why i’m not at ea anymore and he never remembers what i’m fucking doing with my life and my company explaining that to him in regards to “the internet” no fucking clue
Tiff: its like talking to a cat and expecting a intelligent response
Tiff: hell that’s giving a cat credit.
Tiff: ok that’s mean but true.
Tiff: but then he interrupts me in the dead middle of a story and asks for my address.
Tiff: so i am like wtf dad i’m in the middle of my story
Tiff: he is like i have a pen, where do i write to you. ok so i give it to him.
Tiff: then he says ok continue your story. that was relatively unexpected, that he even remembered i was telling him a story.
Tiff: so i finish that story and he says the UNTHINKABLE
Tiff: “hey maybe you can say hi to my favorite president in austin, he owns a big ranch there”
Tiff: me: um what, who
Tiff: “the president he owns a ranch in austin”
Tiff: me: your favorite president is who?
Tiff: “you know who our president is”
Tiff: me: ok you’re kidding right?
Tiff: “no!”
Tiff: me: ok.. (intentionally try to continue with a new subject)
Tiff: “who is your favorite president?”
Tiff: me: umm i don’t want to go there
Tiff: “don’t say obama or ill shoot you”
Tiff: me: no, um he’s not even a president
Tiff: “who then?”
Tiff: me: um clinton
Tiff: “who?!?!”
Tiff: me: bill clinton is my favorite president
Tiff: “you’ve got to be kidding me. does jay feel this way too?”
Tiff: me: i don’t know dad i don’t talk about this stuff with him
Tiff: “oh my god my daughter is going down the drain”
Tiff: “would you rather be an ass or an elephant”
Tiff: me: you told me this scenario when i was 12, and i still find your reasoning for choosing a party irrelevant in many ways
Tiff: “well think about it”
Tiff: me: ok next subject
Tiff: then he tells me he’s talking to a woman form high school he calls her his girlfriend
Tiff: she found him through a mailing list of high school reunion people
Tiff: and she contacted HIM
Tiff: and she lives in florida
Tiff: and wanted to go to san antonio, tx with him
Tiff: and now he’s like ya maybe me and my gf will come visit
Tiff: i had to stifle my laughter
Tiff: i mean this lady is she a wack job or is she normal. if she’s crazy i hope they love eachother in real life but it sounds so asinine. sigh
Tiff: ok i’m done! it was infuriating the whole way, except the GF story which i was highly amused
Tiff: the end. (curtsey)
Tiff: oh more news to cushion the previous rant
Tiff: the whole ass vs elephant thing
Tiff: seriously its true. i asked what’s the diff between republican and democrat when i was very young probably younger than 12
Tiff: and he straight up said the same answer “would you rather be a ass or an elephant”
Tiff: i mean wtf
Tiff: it made NO SENSE then and thank god i understand that it makes no sense now
Tiff: can i really be of the same genetic code that someone thinks gw is like a great president?! seriously can i talk to him again
Tiff: highly unlikely i can ever get over this
Tiff: >.<

Finally, we got a new TV. 65 inch TV! Glorious, amazing, color TV! I have not seen color TV since we got to Austin. J dropped the TV while setting it up, and the color TV became a B&W TV. We grabbed this on Craigslist for 650. While trying to get it in the house, we accidentally sliced the power cord. We also had to hire some people to get it up here because it is so huge. 180 more dollars and some electrical tape later, we have our dream TV - Ok slightly our dream TV. We would have preferred a LCD flatscreen, but those are 2/3 more money, so this will do just fine!

What Your Music Says About You…. (As Though It Doesn’t Say Enough Already)
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
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What does next year have in store for me?
“This is how we do it” - lets hope it is done right!

What’s my love life like?
“Livin on a Prayer”… wow should i have a talk with J?

What do I say when life gets hard?
“Oh Girl” - so true, when i call angela after something serious happens

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
“The Freshmen” - maybe i will marry a 14 yr old

What do you want as a career?
“Sweet Emotion” - hmmm?

Famous last words?
“I don’t want to miss a thing” - and lets hope i dont

Your favourite saying?
“Sorry”  - definitely in my top ten

Favourite place?
“Any way you want it”… that sounds totally dirty

What do you think of your parents?
“It was a good day”. Damn this is getting too scary.

What’s your Pornstar name?
“Mr Jones” - EW! What the hell?

Where would you go on a first date?
“Washin and Wonderin” - must have to do with my damn stripper name

Drug of choice?
“I go to extremes” - Actually, I am quite conservative with my drugs

Describe yourself:
“Alone”   - wow I am learning how sad I am.

What is the thing I like doing most?
“Everything” - Ok stop it

What is my state of mind like at the moment?
“Just what I needed” — I am starting to freak out.

How will I die?
“Have you ever seen the rain?”   -  geez, maybe lightning isn’t my friend

How long has this been around?

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I swear the Austin lifestyle is pretty damn sweet! I save a lot of money here I am serious, all we do is grill meat and swim and hot tub! Almost all the entertainment is free! We are just loving the nights and days at the pool here. If only those roaches would go away, this place would be a dream!

Tonight we made some BBQ chicken and asparagus. It was delicious and we made enough for some hungry partiers nearby and they even commended J on his grillin’ skillz. It is great because honestly it was very trial and error but I have to say he is the bomb griller now and I trust him with all meats and vegetables. After a few nights we had to throw away the charred meat and veggies I would say he has come quite a long way, even the Texans love it.

I am back on a semi-serious diet after I noticed my tan lines that I have earned since I got here are slowly merging to the side. My boobs gain weight first and I saw that when I put my suit on I have a line of white showing, i.e., I am growing! Yikes… granted it is a few lb but I am glad I have these visual signs instead of getting on the scale. So I have switched to Bud Light and white meats and no ice cream except for skinny cow which is allowed. Fuckin’ Texas and your succulent fatness!

I know it sounds like fun, but working from home really fuckin sucks. I thought it would be cooler than it is, probably because everyone knows sitting on the couch in your jammies is fun on weekends and the weekends never last long enough. Working that way really is not fun. I don’t ever meet new people, it gets really boring and I can feel my butt making a homer-like imprint in the couch. Also, it is slightly depressing and lonely. I mean overall, things are going great here, but I realize I am not going to get any more engaged in life until I get some form of real life go-to-the-office job. Well it is also not easy getting a new job in a new place especially when your last job was very field-specific. Of course the overall field is there, Customer Support, but I don’t think I am going to be finding any local internet privacy companies out here to go apply at. Internet Research Specialist perhaps? How grand. Anyway, just a few ramblings about that, I am sure that I will be fine. I am thinking about going back to the gaming industry - It is a very sought-after industry so it is hard to get back in once you leave. There are plenty of options, and I have only been here a month, so I need to just cheer up! More work time tomorrow!